“There is only now, and if now is only two days, then two days is your life and everything in it will be in proportion.” – Ernest Hemmingway, To Whom the Bell Tolls
In June 2014 my Nan was told she has terminal cancer, and was given six months. It’s now been seven. She only has a few weeks left. Every weekend I visit for a few days, and each time she’s deteriorated a little more.
She is considering each and every day from here on as a bonus. She knows it’s close, so she’s making each day count.
By spending time with the people she loves.
By doing her Arrowwords and Crosswords, with the whole family joining in to help.
With going out to town, just to be out the house, when she’s up to it.
Watching TV programmes and movies she likes.
Eating her favourite meals.
It doesn’t sound like much, but she’s doing the things she enjoys, the things she is still capable of doing.
For Nan, there is only now.
We never know what’s around the corner, when life will be snatched away from us. If you were living in the now – if you stopped thinking of your future as weeks, months, years – how would your life be different? If now is all you had, what would you change?
How would you spend your time? What would you want to be doing more of? What would you eat? Who would you want to see?
What relationships would you repair? Who would you walk away from?
Would you be at the same job? Or doing something completely different?
What would you not put off until next week, next month, next year?
What would you stop doing altogether?
I know there’s no way to wave a magic wand and change everything over night. But something popped into your mind, right? Some small change, something you’d like to do…
There is only now.
Are you making each day count?